This is my own story of life with advanced ovarian cancer. I do not offer medical advice, and my treatment decisions are my own. Please talk to your physician or healer and gain as much information as you can about this dreadful disease called cancer. Remember, knowledge is Power!

Monday, November 29

What a week

Wow. I can't believe it's been a week since my last post! I'm having a hard time staying awake for any length of time, being on morphine and muscle relaxers all the time- even though I still don't sleep at night. I escaped from the hospital on Wednesday after almost having a throw-down with the hospitalist and the nurse manager for the floor. That doctor pissed me off.  When he wasn't being condescending to me he was raising his voice to talk over me. You wanna see me go ballistic? Treat me like I'm an asshole who doesn't know what I'm talking about and see what happens.

That "doctor" is apparently new to the hospital group. My nurse told me that the doc hadn't even gotten a report on me before he busted into my room and told me he was sending me home right after my ureterocsopy. Um, excuse me but I just got a whopping shot of morphine 2 minutes ago, so of course my pain is minimal. The urologist has other plans for me. He also couldn't or wouldn't give me an answer on why my pelvic CT scan didn't show the gigantic tumor. He scoffed at the picture I showed him of my tumor on my previous PET scan. "When was that scan done- a year ago?" he sneered at me.  I said "NO, motherfucker- it was a MONTH ago. What is your problem? Why can't you give me a straight answer? And why has it taken 3 fucking days to get the radiologist to look at it?" By this time, my son was sitting very close to me and kind of rubbing my shoulders (actually to grab me when I went to lunge for the stupid shit doctor), and several nurses were seen huddling in the door. I guess they're not used to patients ripping into the doctor like that.  This is where the nurse manager got involved to diffuse the situation.

Anyway, suffice it to say that I survived this episode, and so did the doc. I have a follow up with the urologist tomorrow to take the stents out of my ureters. Then I see the oncologist on Wednesday to discuss my "absent" tumor, get some blood work done and maybe another scan. I also want this port out of my chest. I now have 5 new meds: morphine, muscle relaxers, ditropan-which stops my bladder from spasming, senna to keep the mail moving (which it hasn't in a week, God help me) and Flomax- which they give to old guys for prostate problems. It also relaxes my ureters or something like that, so if any more stones wanna make a break for it, hopefully they will just fall out. Ya think?

Thanksgiving was wonderful. We actually had 2, since my new sis-in-law had to work on Thursday. There was a delicious dinner here at mom's house, then a big bash at my brother's place with SIL's family included.
 My "babies"
THE baby

On a sad note- one of my support group buddies passed away last week. She wasn't very far into treatment and had only recently had surgery, but went downhill quickly from there. Complications took the life of a very beautiful, very young, and very much loved daughter and friend.  We attended a memorial service for her on Saturday. 
R.I.P. Amy. You were loved.


  1. I fucking HATE people like that Dr! I'm glad you let him have it...I was hoping that you'd be out and with your family for Thanksgiving...the love flows all around you Patty, mine included...

  2. So, what you're saying here is, your tumor is gone already?! WOWZA you work fast! WHEEEE!
    I hate doctors who talk like that!!! I've gone off like you did, many MANY times over it too!
    I'm sorry about your friend. I think the worst part about cancer is making friends with other patients and then losing them to this stupid disease.
    I love you muchly <3

  3. OMG! I'm so sorry that your doctor was so insensitive and unaware. I can't even believe it, but I do believe it. I have seen medical professionals act in ways similar to prison guards. Not all are like that, Thank God, and I'll be praying that never happens again. You do not need to waste your precious energy on anger..........not now. I'm just so so so sorry.

    I hope it helped to write about it. I hope they can get the CT scan issue resolved...........just hope you feel better now.

    Good Luck and God Bless

  4. I just started to read your blog. Good for you, the Dr was a jack ass. They need to be brought down from their "God Cloud" and back to reality..
    Sorry for your bad experience.


  5. OMFG!!! that mother fucker should have to take a class on diplomacy!!! Let me know if that ignorant fuck messes with my girl again, i'll come out there with reenforcements, it will be a visit he WILL NEVER FORGET, DA PRICK!!! I'm sorry you had to endure such ignorance and unprofessionalism! My condolences for friend, im sorry, that sucks!! I LOVE YOU BABY!!!

  6. I love that you don't apologize for advocating for yourself. It takes a lot of courage to speak up to the very people in charge of your health. KUDOS! Screw the doc, he's a douche. Laugh harder and yell louder! Shows how much life you've got :)


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