This is my own story of life with advanced ovarian cancer. I do not offer medical advice, and my treatment decisions are my own. Please talk to your physician or healer and gain as much information as you can about this dreadful disease called cancer. Remember, knowledge is Power!

Bucket Schmucket

I don't have a "bucket list" of things I want to do before I die. I mean, really- I have no desire to jump out of a perfectly good airplane, bungee jump, climb Mt. Everest, or have a 3-way with Antonio Banderas and Johnny Depp. Huh. I wonder if the Make A Wish Foundation could. . . . . . .  never mind.

The main thing I want to do before I kick the bucket/buy the farm/cash in my chips/or go to the big beer garden in the sky, is to reconnect with my oldest and dearest. I need to see far away family members. I need to find all my life-long BFFs- we may not have seen each other in a long time, but our bond is soul deep.  Joe, Bo, Junior, Carrie and my Shanny Girl. Linda, Teri, Letta, Cindy- we go way back. As far as actually doing things- well, I'd like to hike the Grand Canyon again. Play the guitar. Win the lottery. Get to know my sisters in law, Sandy and Shana- See my Boyo through high school, watch my grand baby grow up, and witness as my Girl takes over the world. Just regular, normal stuff. It's all I want.

Rico (being a musician) calls it my Farewell Tour. He's not far off, actually. (and he doesn't like it one bit- it pokes holes in his protective bubble of denial.) Life is so unpredictable- do your shit NOW. Call people NOW. Reconnect NOW. Forgive NOW. Love NOW.

We always think we have time. We don't.

Fuck cancer.


  1. WELL FUCK. I can't tell you what an honor it is to be named in this list. You know I feel the same about you so we gotta get it done! I'm also voting for watching grandbabies grow up. I say we stick around till way after that. I lubba you.
    your Shanny Girl

  2. That's right, Baby. You are ON MY LIST! You are some kind of special and I can't live without you. I lubba yuba tuba.

  3. No shit! Love the line "we always think we have time..."

  4. I am so happy to have been included in your pattypalooza, Love you more!

  5. I know where you live and am along for the tour ride...go BIG or go HOME!!! Where do I get on the bus?

  6. Love your list. You're so right, it's not bathing in an Icelandic hot spring that makes the list, it's making sure that all the people who mean the most to you understand the magnitude of your love, and being there for the most important moments in their lives. Bravo.


  7. Oh Sis You are the best sister I could of ever asked for wow I am so blessed to be a part of this huge Loving Higgins Family Thank you so much for 1-making me feel so loved and welcome when we came down for Thanksgiving 2004.
    You are so very SPECIAL..I am honored to be Rob's wifey pooh...Ha Ha Lucky it came with all of you guys..Patty hang in there and please hold on, PLEASE GOD..Let me see you at least one more time I need you Patty......OXOXOXO SANDY


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