This is my own story of life with advanced ovarian cancer. I do not offer medical advice, and my treatment decisions are my own. Please talk to your physician or healer and gain as much information as you can about this dreadful disease called cancer. Remember, knowledge is Power!

Friday, March 25

Happy Birthday To Me

Well, I made it to the big 5-0. Woot! This is also my 2 year Cancer-versary. yay me.

Things have been going ok, I guess. My hospice team is absolutely wonderful, and take care of my every need. I have good days and bad days. I've cut down on my pain meds so I can think clearly, but not enough to let the pain in too deeply. That's always there. 

I've been very sad about Jane's passing. It's been on my mind a lot. We never know how much time we have, or what will try to trip us up along the way. I'm just fighting to stay well. You've heard the term "she took to her bed and never left it again". On my bad days, that's what I feel like. Bad days consist of puking and sleeping all day. I've lost almost 50 lbs. in the last 3 months. My butt is completely gone, my breasts are . . . well, just not my breasts any more. Sigh...  Now, I really look sick. It's hard for me to eat more than 4 bites of anything. I've started the tube feeding, but that isn't agreeing with me. I had a total puke fest yesterday after half a can of "supplement". 

The good thing is that today we're all taking a road trip to San Diego! I'm so excited! My whole family and my best friend are going. Everyone is running around madly packing things and trying to make room for all my medical equipment and my drugs. It's a big load. I've been waiting for this trip for so long. I'm returning to the place of my childhood (Coronado) and sticking my feet in the surf at sunset.

So.. wish me luck on my trip, I'll try to update next week. I hope everyone is happy and having good days. Love to all-


  1. Happy birthday Pateeta! I hope your trip to Coronado is wonderful, its such a wonderful place. :)
    -Stardancin (from BannedCamp, aka Allison)

  2. Although I've already left you a facebook message, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Have a great time on your trip :-) XOXO

  3. Happy birthday, Pateeta. I hope it's awesome and full of wonderful memories. Have a great trip and enjoy the sunshine. Big hugs!

  4. Happy Birthday, Pateeta! I hope your trip is everything you want it to be.

  5. Happy Birthday Pateeta. Enjoy your trip to San Diego. Hugs.

  6. Happy Birthday, Pateeta! I hope you have an amazing trip... San Diego sounds just wonderful. :-)

  7. Happy birthday, my girl. Hope the surf is warm for you and you have a great trip there and back home. Love to you!

  8. Happy birthday! Enjoy the trip.

  9. I hope your bday was beyond the pale (whatever the F that means). Hope you had a great time in SD. You definitely deserve some great times.

    Jane's death has stuck with me too. Sad. She was extremely courageous and that reminds me of someone else I know, kind a sort a...

  10. Glad that you had your Vacay trip with your family and loved ones. Hoping that it was Wonderful and helped restore your spirit!

    Caring hugs, "Iris"


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