The breakup is done. I swear, that was the longest breakup I've ever had, with all the moving and whatnot. We've kept it civil, we're amicable, and we'll try to stay friends. Maybe I'll get over my resentment now that I'm not depending on him for anything.
On to the yada yada yada. Yeah. I really don't want to go there, but I must. I saw my PCP last week to talk about weaning off some of my meds and to check out some pain I've been having- not just the upper abdominal thing that I think is nerve damage/scar tissue, but a new, lower, pelvic pain. I was trying to think what I had left in there that would hurt so much; my bladder? my colon? This pain has gotten progressively worse over the last month, and I'm sure moving boxes and furniture hasn't helped it much. But this pain is beyond strained muscles. And I'm actually FEELING lumpy-type things down there. My PCP said it "may" be a hernia that developed after my surgery last year. But he doesn't think so.
He's ordering a new pelvic/abdominal CT scan for me- I'll get that next week. He wrote up a referral to the new oncologist I need to see, since I have no insurance now and have to change docs. I'll see him on Thursday. He did some labwork.
My CA-125, which has been very low for a year, is now at 205. Are you ready for Round 3? Plan D? FUCK. ME.
OMG. FML is the new acronym.
ReplyDelete205 and I bitched about 74??
Hit me upside the head.
I have read many of your posts (not all, yet) but I haven't commented on them because I just don't know what to say...I am so damned MAD at cancer and so very sad that you've had to go through so much and pissed off that I haven't been able to hold your hand through it all...When you were here all I could think about is how I could possibly come there and take care of you...I am so relieved that you've worked that out...I love you so much and will stand by you no matter what...I am bound to you by love and heart sissi, don't ever forget that...Vicki
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